ADHD

Your Reaction is Not Discourse

If you consider how people piss you off, what do you make of that, exactly? Is it their fault? Yours? Both? Depends? I have a tendency to situate myself as either a victim or defender of the victim. I just gravitate toward those roles, it’s taken years to even begin to unlearn it. What I’m not comfortable with is the position of the perpetrator, I avoid it, and sometimes in doing so can actually behave aggressively, mainly toward myself but it can also be toward others. So as a practice, I’m always interested in what comes up for me when…

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Mediting

I always thought I was pretty good at editing. Even though I never wanted to do it ever and have been putting off editing my book for about a year. But when I actually sit down to do it, I feel like it goes pretty well. It’s just that I have a lot of other things to do instead of sitting down to do it. Like writing new things. I always have so many ideas for new things to write! Like what if I wrote about thrifting in the ’90s in Seattle? Or maybe I could write about how the…

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Social Media, Rewards, and ADHD

I know that internet and social media use is a difficult thing for many people to navigate. I’ve even heard some people say that the internet and our phones actually cause ADHD. I don’t agree with that because almost everyone uses the internet and not everyone has ADHD. There’s also plenty of research that suggests there is an actual brain difference for people with ADHD. I do think that social media and the internet can divide your attention in ways that might mimic ADHD symptoms. But I think it’s more about a classic reward system response. We get a little…

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Overdiagnosed as Over-the-Top

“She’s so extra.” I first heard this term last year. My friend John’s wife said it about someone we both knew. She’s a woman of color and works at a high school. She also has a son in middle school, so she is probably more up-to-date than most people when it comes to slang. I absolutely love slang. It’s just so damn creative. When I hear a new word or phrase that really nails it, I have a strong urge to incorporate it into my vocabulary right away. Extra means–according to the best urban dictionary definition– “doing the absolute damn…

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The Concerta Diaries

Dang, my writing has exploded since I started taking medication. I can’t tell if it’s causal in an energy way or if it’s coinciding with me having the focus to write more.  I feel like this phenomenon was embedded in the blog culture back in the day as well, Ambien and Adderall-driven, hyper-detailed logs of one’s day. Then maybe everybody got really embarrassed. I remember I used to re-read my diaries when I was younger and I’d shred them, wanting to erase this younger self. A few years ago a friend of mine I was visiting at her home, also…

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