April 2019

Mediting

I always thought I was pretty good at editing. Even though I never wanted to do it ever and have been putting off editing my book for about a year. But when I actually sit down to do it, I feel like it goes pretty well. It’s just that I have a lot of other things to do instead of sitting down to do it. Like writing new things. I always have so many ideas for new things to write! Like what if I wrote about thrifting in the ’90s in Seattle? Or maybe I could write about how the…

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Social Media, Rewards, and ADHD

I know that internet and social media use is a difficult thing for many people to navigate. I’ve even heard some people say that the internet and our phones actually cause ADHD. I don’t agree with that because almost everyone uses the internet and not everyone has ADHD. There’s also plenty of research that suggests there is an actual brain difference for people with ADHD. I do think that social media and the internet can divide your attention in ways that might mimic ADHD symptoms. But I think it’s more about a classic reward system response. We get a little…

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The Conscience of White Identity

I recently started a tinyletter at my cousin Bonnie’s suggestion. She used to keep reminding me that she was my cousin-in-law, but since she’s been in the family for over twenty years and she’s one of my favorite people, she’s family, whether she likes it or not, so I dropped the in-law thing a long time ago. Her suggestion to start a tinyletter was just from a communication standpoint, she said she missed me on social media (I dropped almost all social media a couple of years ago) and wanted to know what was going on with me. After researching…

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Overdiagnosed as Over-the-Top

“She’s so extra.” I first heard this term last year. My friend John’s wife said it about someone we both knew. She’s a woman of color and works at a high school. She also has a son in middle school, so she is probably more up-to-date than most people when it comes to slang. I absolutely love slang. It’s just so damn creative. When I hear a new word or phrase that really nails it, I have a strong urge to incorporate it into my vocabulary right away. Extra means–according to the best urban dictionary definition– “doing the absolute damn…

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The Concerta Diaries

Dang, my writing has exploded since I started taking medication. I can’t tell if it’s causal in an energy way or if it’s coinciding with me having the focus to write more.  I feel like this phenomenon was embedded in the blog culture back in the day as well, Ambien and Adderall-driven, hyper-detailed logs of one’s day. Then maybe everybody got really embarrassed. I remember I used to re-read my diaries when I was younger and I’d shred them, wanting to erase this younger self. A few years ago a friend of mine I was visiting at her home, also…

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One Point Away From Gifted

Being on the other side of the evaluation was new for me. As a speech language pathologist, I had administered standardized tests hundreds of times, to children and adults. My primary feeling really was curiosity about the evaluation for ADHD, not just about the diagnosis but also in terms of how it would feel to be on the other side, the non-expert? Here’s how it felt. When it wasn’t boring or mildly interesting, it was stressful. So, basically like I imagined. It was a three-hour process, tests administered by a neuropsychologist, and the results would be available immediately after the…

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I’m Uncomfortable With the Way Your Diagnosis Makes Me Feel

Diagnoses are interesting, aren’t they? Oxford Dictionary defines diagnosis as the identification of the nature of an illness or other problem by examination of the symptoms. Its origin is Greek, from diagignōskein (meaning to distinguish or discern), based on the words dia (apart) and gignōskein or, to recognize, know. To me, that sounds like a good thing. To know something and recognize it, to distinguish or discern. Diagnoses are not always accurate, and can even be controversial, but ultimately it is just an examination of symptoms and an identification of what they mean. So, what about a diagnosis for ADHD? What…

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